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cried like damn bird jus now.
caus of bloody amath.
its not solved yet luh.

so uhhhh,
called mr david lim just now.
my mother actually wants me to drop amath.
caus she thinks that its actually a burden for me.
and she knows that our family do not have numbers flowing in our blood.

to think about it,
actually i would like to develop towards art or languages in the future.
i have totally zero interest for math and science.
and i'm sure i wont get a career in that area.

now again,
i called up my cousin and asked for her advice.
she said that, i have to make a choice for what courses i want when i progress to poly or jc.
only then i can decide to drop or not.
and to set the determination to focus all my heart on studies.
im doubting that.

i have to do research on my futre.
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Hey all.
Mr David Lim hung up on me twice, kinda lah.
He had some stuff to handle and now its 8 and he hasn't called back.
I guess I'll see him personally tomorrow!
With Sinyee? [:

Called up my cousin to ask for advice.
She said I should drop if I have doubts for my ability, and if I think its a right choice.
and i shouldnt caus she believe i can do it, if i am willing to sacrifice other things and do what's best for myself.

I'm doubting myself.
So I'm confused on what to do.
I'm really confused.
It hasn't been like that for a long long time.

After pondering for a whole few hours,
and after asking myself,
the answer flashing in my mind is to drop amath.

Caus seriously, my foundation is not there.
I believe if i pay attention, sec 4 work would not be much a problem...
But sec 3 work, do i have time to make up for it?

and my other subjects are horrible too.
what if i continue taking amath and they just continue being like that.

MIUMIU said maybe i should take combined science,
and hold on to amath.
But, like veh weird leh.

Researched on the web.
I'm interested in more arty stuff, or language.
But i think there's no school offering foreign language.
Yeah i wna learn japanese or korean its a very huge interest.
Or music? maybe?

I've got zero interest for main stream subjects.
okay, maybe TEN percent interest.
But im pretty sure i wont invest my studies on science or maths.
Maybe i should give it a bet.

RedtomatoFrankyboy said there's optometry business design etc...

BUT to think again,
amaths is like, a "policy",
like, if got no hope for other subjects stil got amath.
I'm lacking of this sense of security.

WHAT SHOULD I DO!
Rahhhhhhhhhh!

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Today was pretty fun actually.
It was another cold morning.

mother tongue, we reach damn early for that b*tch to see.
Ytd kena scold by her caus we reach ON TIME.
she dont like ON TIME.
she like EARLY.
so we give her EARLY today.
>smiles

had chemlab!
SULPHUR, DAMN SMELLY.
ewwwww!
smells like FART.

physics test.
i think its rather okay.
think will fail though :X

amaths lesson.
no heart alr.
alr half drop liao, no mood to listen leh.

english damn sian.
blahblah.

damn funny today!
joked quite alot w liping.

Ryon damn pathetic.
He get bitten by bat few days ago,
thn today he kena sting by bee.
So cham right?!

AIYERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
amaths making me siao liao.

i go do hmwk now.
SHIT THIS!